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People wonder why I don’t like white iPhones. (Taken with instagram)
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Dear God
I need your strength lord. Strength to be humble hearted. To lean on you for rest. These are times I know I can succeed for you or lose, lose myself in my own understanding. I just ask a couple simple things.
1. Never let me feel that I don’t need you. Always keep me running back to you for more, because even if at times, I dot want to believe it, I know you are more than enough for me.
2. Never let me feel that you aren’t there! I know sometimes it’s just hard to listen to you, and I get the best of myself, but that’s when I need to feel you the most! Don’t let me feel alone.
3. Don’t let me get tired. Sometimes I feel tired of doing the right thing and just want to do something wrong as if it won’t matter to you, as if you wouldn’t find out. Just give me your strength.
4. Lastly I just pray you make everything I do worship you. From the way I walk, the clothes I wear, how I carry myself, and treat others.
I’m far from perfect. I make mistakes every day. I put other peoples needs to the side lines. I am selfish. I’m a liar. I’m prideful. I am foolish. But just make me like you.
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People should follow @lifedictionary on instagram and twitter:) (Taken with instagram)
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17 May 2012
This entire week has just been having ups and downs. I mean, it’s not like I’ve had the worst week or the best. I just can’t seem to stay on top of things, I can’t be comfortable where I am anymore.
I’ve been kinda bugged about my relationship with God lately. I’m just so all over the place. I just feel like I need to be somewhere permanent, at least for the while just enough to be on my feet. Cause honestly, the only people I get to really dig deep with I feel are my pastors, and people way older than me. It’s good being able to talk to them, they listen, and I learn from what they’ve experienced.
The thing is though, I miss being with people my age, I miss going to school, sharing and talking about my Gods love for me. I miss going to church, not feeling rushed. I miss seeing my family. I miss my friends and the people who make me more, me! It’s hard living by yourself.
God did not make us so we can live by ourselves, he did not make us to worship him by ourselves, he didn’t put us in a world full of people to feel alone, he didn’t say I love you and have no evidence to prove it.
Sometimes I wish people just made the effort as much as I did.
Even just saying “hi”, or “how are you”. Sometimes all a guy needs is somebody to talk to.
I know I’m filled to be emptied again and I just don’t want to be looking for love in the wrong places.
Lord, my God, my Savior, I just want to pray to you with a broken heart tonight that you just make me a new man. I mess up. I look down. I disappoint you. I don’t put you first. I don’t listen. I need more of you and you alone! I put my heart in the hands of somebody who has no clue what it needs and it was just left for dead. You serenade me with your life, Lord. It’s your beauty that’s amazing. It’s your love that’s unfailing. I still don’t understand why I choose to let myself down straying from you. You’re everlasting, inexhaustible and you love me just because you can. Who does that now a days? Lord I just pray you put me where you want to put me. I don’t want to feel empty. I don’t want to feel empty. I don’t want to feel alone. I don’t want to feel as if I still have to search, as if you are not enough! Lord, just make my hands your hands. Use my feet. I will go! Break my heart and make it yours. Please lord, I beg you.
Lord, head my pray.
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15 May 2012
There’s a reason behind your pain, your hurt. God doesn’t just let it happen without you knowing it’s coming. He warns you.. Not once, but several times until he takes matters into his own hands. Not that they aren’t already. But he just does what’s best for you.
Honestly I’m just a little kicked in the chest right now. I just want to lay down cause I wish I had somebody to talk to. If I could get more comfortable and get lower than the floor, trust me. I would.
Things are good though:) I guess waiting has it’s benefits.
I’m done waiting now.
Let’s do something BiG!Lord, I just want to thank you, cause you don’t give me any more than I can handle. You put me in the right position these past couple months to just stay exactly where I am and wait and just follow you and seek you with this broken heart. I’m glad that it breaks a lot cause I obviously use it, I know where to go to fix it, and I’m never too far away from you that you don’t tell me how to take good care of it. I just pray that you lead me to bigger and better things. I used to think when something had happened to me my life was falling apart. I know that this is just something you’re doing to build me up. To aim higher. To try harder. To do more. To rely on you fully. To act wise. Be humble. Learn to be understanding. Simply be a man you intend me to be. Just to live to try and make you happy is more than enough. I love you, lord.
If you sleep, sleep tight
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